5 Year Anniversary
Five Years of Artistic Exploration: A Reflection
Five years ago today, I made a pivotal decision that would significantly alter the course of my personal and creative journey—I created my art Instagram page. At the time, I had recently moved to Dallas, TX to pursue an MBA while working part-time as a babysitter. One quiet morning, during a lull in my routine, I discovered Amanda Oleander’s art page. Her work immediately captivated me, and I spent hours exploring it, deeply moved by her unique vision. In that moment, a profound realization emerged: I, too, could channel my creativity into something meaningful and public. It was as though I had received permission to pursue a long-held passion, with the added possibility that this pursuit could one day provide financial sustainability.
That same evening, filled with inspiration, I made an impromptu visit to an art supply store where I purchased the most basic materials I could afford—paper and markers. The following morning, while babysitting, I sat in the kitchen and began to draw. As I did, the idea for my own art page gradually took shape. After receiving input from my family, I officially branded myself as Lauren Alexander Studio.
Yet despite my newfound enthusiasm, I was paralyzed by fear. I worried about the reactions of those around me—would they perceive my work as naive or insignificant? The fear of criticism became a substantial barrier to taking the next step. These insecurities delayed my progress for some time, leading me to question my intentions. I had no formal artistic training; my academic background was rooted in science, and I was deeply entrenched in the medical field. I was pursuing an MBA in healthcare administration- a rigorous and demanding program. Why, then, was I allowing myself to be consumed by a creative pursuit that appeared to detract from my primary academic and professional goals? Ahhh scary.
However, despite these doubts, I came to the inevitable conclusion that art had always been a fundamental part of my identity. From childhood, I had been drawn to artistic expression, frequently filling notebooks with drawings and paintings. One notable childhood memory involved winning an art contest with a piece I created for a local hospital’s "Under the Sea" theme.
Even during my undergraduate studies in biology, art served as a therapeutic outlet, helping me cope with the pressures of academics and independence. My parents had consistently nurtured this creative side throughout my life, yet the idea of sharing my art with the world still felt overwhelming.
A turning point came when I listened to a podcast in which the founder of LinkedIn was quoted as saying, “If you’re not embarrassed by your first work, you’ve started too late.” This statement resonated deeply with me, and it provided the push I needed. I realized that waiting for the perfect moment or for my work to reach an idealized standard of quality was counterproductive. With that, I finally launched my art page, accepting that growth would come through the process of creation itself.
Now, five years later, I find myself reflecting on that decision with immense gratitude. Though I embarked on this journey with uncertainty and apprehension, it has been a deeply fulfilling and transformative experience. I had no way of predicting the opportunities or personal growth that would result from sharing my art, but I am thankful that I chose to take that leap.
As I celebrate this five-year milestone, I extend my sincere thanks to those who have supported me along the way. Your presence and encouragement have been instrumental in my ongoing artistic development. I remain committed always to refining my craft and expanding the boundaries of my creativity, and I look forward to continuing this journey with you.
With infinite love and gratitude, today and always-
